Saturday, October 31, 2009

J'ai la mémoire qui flanche

J'adore cette chanson ... ;-)

The melody makes me think of summer, sitting in the garden, sipping rose.

Friday, October 30, 2009

Truth to be told

Yes I know I have been complaining about how difficult it is to find a job in France, how sad I am the fact that I am unemployed, how frustrated I am, la da da .. i just realised that up to today, I had sent only two resumes .. shocking isn't it !!

Truth to be told,I have absolute no right to complain about thow hard it is to find a job .. i wasn't sure what was i on about these past few months. Okay, okay, I'll be frank -- when I hear stories about how hard it is to search for jobs, how my friends have been dissapointed many2 times, I had been putting myself in their position, feeling what they are feeling:- their misery, frustration, dissapointment. I have been moaning and complaining with them, talking as if I had gone through the same ordeal myself. I blame it all in my philosophy of learning from other peoples' experience. I believe in the power of listening and observing. Taking note of the mistakes and success of other people and adapting it to my own situation. That said, perhaps this is why I had put myself in my friends shoes -- being miserable with them. How twisted is that??

Truth to be told, I am happy learning French. Every morning I get up at 7, get ready to catch the morning train at 8.00 to town. Got there at 8.30 and start walking to school. I love my morning walk -- the smell of crisp fresh air mixed with the aroma of coffee and fresh croissant -- an essential in all frech bakery. I love passing by the garden, the carousel against the green grass and trees -- all calms me down. I love stopping by my favourite bakery and getting the 50 centimes beignet (doughnut) covered with icing sugar. I love eating my beignet whist passing by the flea market, on the way to my class. Truth to be told, I love my life at this moment. I love the city, the weather, the food.

I love it more if I can have my friends here to share the moments with me.

P.S: I promise that I will take the pictures of the garden, my fav bakery and the flea market next week -- snapshots of my daily life.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

French course

I started new French school last week. It was a bit weird being in a roomful of peole aged between 18-26. There are only three students who are older than 26 years old including me. Good thing is they dont know how old I am. Europeans will never get your age correct, rest assured. You will always be 5 to 10 years younger than your age. Well of course it's flattering but in my 'I hate my life here in France' phase find that thought to be insulting. Why did they think that I am that immature and not worth to be taken seriously??

I was nervous as the outline of what the course will cover was laid out in front of me. It stated that I am supposed to know all the tenses that is in the french grammar bible and this level will be more in the practical use of those grammar. Are they joking...geez I have only covered past and present tense. There are still 6 different tenses to cover. How on earth am I going to cope with it. Thus, I spend hours and hours after class last week studying French tenses. Blimey I had to struggle with English tenses and even until now I dont get it 100 percent right. And now attempting French grammar. Feel like somebody should aim a gun on my head and pull the trigger! Well after one week slogging with French grammar, I came to school on Monday feeling slightly relieved but still walking on eggshell. True enough.. present tense revision was what the teacher had planned for us. So I glided through the exercises with ease and found out that half of the class did not even get it rightly, so all that worry last week, was pointless!! Shit.

With that new revelation I spent the last three days reading novel and watching movies. It's like payback to all my worries. Although I felt guilty spending my time on mindless activity as such, I reassured myself by saying -- I deserve this. However, my conscious returned and reminded me that I should be studying French, because without it, it may be almost impossible to jumpstart my career in this godforsaken country. So here I am again back to square one, waiting to be inspired.